Today's the first day of my course and i kept grumbling because they finished at 6 plus. it was a stark contrast to the last 2 weeks where i slack and slept the days thru and book out so early with my earliest being 3pm! hmm... the first day was rather okay. lots of lecture and dozing off. i just realised there's too much to learn for cq course and they are putting in redundant stuff to pass the 4months course. it's until 12 oct. hhmmm... hope tomorrow ends early. and i'm just contented to be in this course. :)


Today's the first time in a long while that my parents and i had a great laugh. ahh... kinda bring a smile to my face. even though i knew a long while ago things wun be the same, it's still nice once a while to see them talk. and i think as i mature, my view of my dad changes along the way too. :) anyway, hope they are always happy.


Didn't realised BRAVO company has like 60 over OOC personnels now. lols. that's like so so so much. can really form a platoon. and maybe a company. today's the start of the new sispec intake. wonder how's those new privates doing there. makes me think back of the time i was outfield. it does sucks. i can't wait to get my 3rd sergeant rank and go to a good unit. :) no posting back to sispec please. thank you!


I was watching a short clip of a noble woman who fought cancer and lost her right eye. kinda makes me feel pitiful. ahh... all the diseases in the world. why are they there in the first place? hmm.. but she made me realised all my pain i gone thru thus far isn't any comparable to hers. shouldn't grumble so much like i always do... sighs.


Woke up realising nothing's there for me anymore. i do feel sad but it's kinda hopeless anyway. nothing matters. all's in the past. nothing can bring back endless time and joy. stuck in memories where everything felt so bittersweet. it's just like walking home alone where u realise the person u once walk home with is just a distant memory. sighs.


The sadness.


Dunch u ever wish to restart yr life at some point? where u could change everything. i would jump at any chance. even if it means suffering again or starting army again, i will still give everything up to start everything all over again...


You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw you face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face, When she thought up that I should be with you. But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.






GOOD CHARLOTTE - WE BELIEVE.